You've come too far to take orders from a cookie

I'm kind of pissed off, I'm the same weight I was yesterday morning (124.25lbs), and I ate exactly the same thing as the other days, which only amounts to 300 calories. But I guess I lost a lot of weight in 2 days so I should chill my beans. On a more positive note, I can actually see the change in my body! I can see my hip bones a bit, and my ribs, and my stomachs pretty much flat, just not toned yet...I'll definitely need to start hitting the gym, fuck.


And I'm going to Dubai in 4 days! I get to go in Business Class because of an upgrade. I think I'm going to allow myself to eat and drink on the plane, because when am I going to get to go in Business Class again?! Lots of champagne for me, yes please. So I'll just not eat before or after the flight, then start some intense gymming and swimming in Dubai. So excited!


Also, I'm developing more regular sleeping patterns by eating less - I'm only sleeping around 7 hours a night compared to the 12 I could usually just whack out. But I keep having these recurring dreams of me eating loads of fatty shit; like cupcakes, sandwiches, cookies...everything really. Then I feel horribly guilty and wake up still feeling guilty. But it's such a relief when I realise it was a dream, and maybe I'm actually dispelling all of my bad habits subconsciously - I'd be down with that.


One more thing. Freshly baked cookies are one of my biggest cravings, and I know how shit they are for you. But I came across this quote yesterday which I enjoyed:


'You've come too far to take orders from a cookie'


When you say it like that, it really does seem pathetic to give in to your cravings. A craving is just a feeling or a fleeting thought that you have induced, and if you humour this thought, you keep intensifying it and intensifying it until you feel that you need to give in to the craving. But this is bullshit! Life will go on if I don't have that cookie or that slice of pizza. No one else gives a shit if I have it or not, so the only person it would be affecting and proceeding to turn into a fat shit would be me. 


Logic - it helps me.